Wednesday, June 24, 2009

The Road That Lies Ahead....

There are many times when I look at my life compared to others, and realize I'm incredibly lucky, but at the same time,I feel like my life is missing something. In the past, i've written about not being happy at my job, wanting something more, possible graduate school opportunities, but right now I have one thing in mind, and that is, that a risk is to be taken; but when do I take it, where do I take it, and how do I take it?

Everyone is always telling me that if I don't take a risk, I won't ever know what the outcome will be. I tend to always assume the worst about situations, expecting things to not work out before even trying anything of them. I like to always be prepared for the worst, just in case it happens to me.

Right now, I have one place in mind I am considering to move. A lot of people support me in my idea to move there. And I would hope many more would too. It's a huge risk to move this far away, and, although I know jobs are available, regardless of what everyone says, it's just a matter of finding them, and that would be an extreme challenge for me living far away from this place. I don't have much earned time off either that I could take, but at the same time, I'm also not planning on this happening but maybe within the next year sometime. I like preparing and thinking ahead from what's to come, so if I stress about it now, I'll get all the negative thinking out of my head, so when it comes time to make a serious decision, I'll be thrown in the right direction for me.

This might give it away, but I visited Wilmington this past weekend for a night. My little brother goes to UNCW there, and I got to meet up with him while visiting. He gave me a lot of comfort in thoughts I'd been having and future moves I had in mind, and he supported me and told me what I'd have to do. Although he is my little brother, he acts like a big brother at times, especially these when I need that support and people guiding me in the right direction. I'm at a standstill right now, and it feels like something exciting is bound to happen, but at the same time, I feel like I have to make a big move in some regard to get it to happen.

It's a beautiful place, and hey, my favorite show is filmed there ("One Tree Hill")!

My problem is I'm in Charlotte, NC with opportunities around me for all kinds of different jobs, but I want to work in the entertainment industry. I used to focus just on music, and that's definitely still my ultimate passion and dream to work with music, yet I am interested in everything entertainment. I'm willing to work from the bottom up and using my administrative experience, I could start doing that from the bottom up. It's just finding a company like that that needs someone like me, or wants someone like me. I've researched different production companies and tried contacting some, but have a few in mind that could really be a huge impact on my life and career, and, I've yet to hear anything back.

I know I'm not the only one in the world with passions like this, but I just wish someone would give me a break, and I'd get lucky and manage to meet someone to give me that big break vs. having to settle for something less than what I love and what I'd love to contribute to in life. I want to get lucky.

Is that too much to ask?

I know that if the UNC sytems weren't on a hiring freeze I could easily transfer in the UNC system usually, but at the same time, I'm not getting my hopes up. I don't know what kind of jobs will be available, if any, once I decide to, if I decide to move out there. I know I'm growing up and taking this plunge would be a huge challenge and change, from my comfort zone, but I know I have the strength to do it, if it will help me in the long run overall.