Friday, October 23, 2009

Investment

I have not been posting on this blog or my myspace blog for awhile because I have been particular about what I've been writing about lately. I felt like it was useless because I had maybe one reader and that was it, but I'm hoping to gain more as time goes on, and as I learn to use Google's Blogger better and get more familiar with everything it entails.

I'm 24, full-time receptionist at the college I graduated from 2+ years ago, and, my degree is not really being used right now, and I have passions in music, entertainment, and photography. What am I doing with it currently? NOTHING. SQUAT. ZIP. I don't have the money to put into a professional or let alone regular digital camera unless I want to wipe out my bank account pretty much, and, I'm trying to put some money away here and there from a part time job I have but it's only a little bit every couple of weeks. It's something, I know, but doesn't seem to be adding up to enough. That's something I've always enjoyed doing, and the thrill of it excites me all the time when I see people with new and better cameras than I've ever had and want.

Another consideration I'm thinking about that I've visited before and threw out the window, was a Master's in Entertainment Music through Full Sail University. It'd be long-distance, online and less than two years, based on how hard I work at it, and how much I get accomplished, and of course how well I 'get' everything, right?

Last night I attended a HANSON concert, yes the girly-boy band everyone has talked about since their appearance in 1997. I've loved them ever since I saw them on the Rosie O Donnell show and saw them live shortly after downtown Charlotte, NC. They played at Amos' last night where they pretty much have come the past couple of years, and will revisit next year when their new album is released :) I'm so excited for the next time I see them live. I saw old faces, and revisited old times with people since everyone there has followed them since the beginning. It made me feel young again, and although I felt extremely stressed at the start of yesterday, I felt carefree and happy, and young by the end of the night. It made me realize what I'd been missing, something to make me happy and feel accomplished and passionate about. Music does that for me.

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Use Your Sole Tour flyer Pictures, Images and Photos

The day before, I had received a job offer for a teller position at a credit union about 20 min. from where I live. Right now, I commute about an hour to a receptionist job, mostly because I moved away after having it to get out of the main city I was from. I felt confined and wanted a change. I pay $400/month on a month to month lease and I love my house, my boyfriend whom I live with, and my 2 dogs Ava and Cujo. Great, sweet dogs, big babies really. If only it were closer to my job, it'd be PERFECT. But it's not. Of course, I'm also experiencing issues with my supervisor, and although it's just her management style, it still irks me. Anyways, I'm rambling.

I got this offer and it was a great opportunity, but I wasn't exactly thrilled about getting it, much to my surprise because I have been complaining about my place of work for awhile now. Through the interviewing process (just one interview), the guy I interviewed with was nice, and everything, but I think I made myself believe i wanted to be in the banking industry, when I really just wanted a way to get out of my job (which is not as bad as I was thinking of course). I questioned the guy about different perks and they were much better where I'm at now. I had doubts in me ever since I got the offer. And that told me I shouldn't take it. Although i was excited to have an 'out' of this job, I couldn't do it. I was looking at all the negatives of my job before, but now see all the more positive out of it. I have so much flying through my mind, it's insane, and I know if I leave this job, it has to be for something I'm sure I want and am passionate about. Not just to find another job that pays the bills that might make me miserable in the long run ya know?And I was going back and forth the pros and cons of staying/leaving, and I don't regret my decision to turn down the offer. I know it was the right thing for me to do. I then told a couple of my friends to apply to teller positions since they're interviewing a lot and needing more people.

Now moving on to the next step of my life...I'm not going to just keep applying to jobs and treating it like a game. I didn't mean to treat it like one and never intended on doing that, but I guess I was. Sorry people out there that dont like me for that.

Sometimes I wonder what happened to those things I was so passionate about, but let go of. Instead of just being desperate and looking for just any kind of job like the oneI have now, I have to really strive for something better. Better than what I think I deserve at times. Better than I can imagine. Sometimes I don't think I've done what I could have while I was in college, and I need to fix that. If that means going into debt getting a better education, then that's a good investment. If it's spending my savings on something that will make me happier, then I guess I should do that? I don't know. I go back and forth with what's right, what's the correct way of doing things, and then I get stuck again.

Sometimes I don't feel I have the strength to move, to change jobs, to invest in something new that would make me happier all around. I question everything.

It was really good seeing some old familiar faces. Ones from high school I used to be close to that I'd drifted apart from, but we still keep in touch from time to time. I see how successful they've been with passions they've found, in jobs they have, and, then I look at myself and think, "What am I doing with my life?" Am I just waiting for my life to pass me by? I'm not doing anything about my passions, well I thought I was, but I need to try harder than I ever have. And, hopefully that gets me somewhere closer. All I can do is hope.

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Friday, October 9, 2009

The Google Game - GBT

The following is again, a response to Group Blog Thursday.
I understand I'm posting this on Friday morning, but I didn't get around to it yesterday, so spare me :)

1. Your Favorite beverage:

Cheerwine Ad Pictures, Images and Photos
The picture tells it all. Many people may have never heard of this. Even my supervisor's kids (from Arkansas) discovered this when they moved here, and LOVED IT so she had to bring them some from good ole North Carolina when visiting them in Arkansas where they attend college. I forget it's just a local thing sometimes.

2. Your hometown:
Downtown Matthews Pictures, Images and Photos
One side of main street.
Downtown Matthews Pictures, Images and Photos
The other side of main street.
I grew up in Matthews, NC. It's 20-30 min. outside of Charlotte, NC (The Queen City). I lived there from age 5-18 when I moved to Charlotte to attend college. I lived in Greenville, SC and Colorado Springs, CO before that, but Matthews will always be my true home. It's all I've really ever known.

3. Your favorite TV show:
One Tree Hill Pictures, Images and Photos
One Tree Hill is in its 7th season. Of course, it's drastically changed this year, eliminating two of its original and most popular characters but still doing extremely well for a show of its nature and the risks the cast/crew have taken in changing the show to not just follow in every other show's footsteps. I'm pretty impressed, and thoroughly addicted!

4. Your Occupation/You are in school for:
I do this:
Office at work Pictures, Images and Photos
I'm an office assistant/receptionist/secretary; always have a smile on my face; answer phones; multi-task......assist the entire department pretty much. I'm so lucky....(*catch the sarcasm there?*)
I went to college for this:
Epic Logo Pictures, Images and Photos
Epic Records.
Just an example of who I'd want to work for - a music company. I LOVE MUSIC!
But I'm doing clerical work, so I can't let that interfere with my dream. It's a paycheck.

5. Your first car:
SUNP0057 A Pictures, Images and Photos
SUNP0056 A Pictures, Images and Photos
2000 Honda Civic.
Of course, in the time I've been driving it, it's been through quite a bit, but it looks like this again, now, with hail dents all on it in random places (unexpected tornado-like storm - no warning) ....also no garage/cover. Lucky me. After my parents spent $4500-5000 fixing it up, then comes the freakin hail 6 months later. FML.

6. Your favorite dish:
Toppers pizza OPENING DAY!!! Pictures, Images and Photos
Topper's Pizza - BBQ Topper. This pizza is like DESSERT for me. I fill up so fast, but this I could practically scarf down the entire pizza. No kidding. "The Best GD pizza in the whole world!" (as I quoted to my boyfriend....and he reitterates back to me from time to time in a humouristic way) - is that even a word? :)

7. Celebrity you've been told to resemble:
Allyson Hannigan12 Pictures, Images and Photos
Allyson Hannigan. Or is it Allison Hannigan.
Either way, regardless, multiple people have told me I look like her, although I have brown hair, she has red. If I died my hair red, I'd look like her. Not so much sure in this shot though. It was just the first picture I found that was suitable for my blog.
8. Celebrity on your "to do" list:
Christian Bale Pictures, Images and Photos
Good ole Christian Bale. Been a fan since NEWSIES. (If you haven't seen it, check it out. The first movie I ever saw him in. Fell for him then.) I'm glad someone finally caught him and blew him up in this big well known guy as BATMAN but I've known of him since I was like 7....ahh my celebrity crush.

9. Favorite Childhood toy:
$40 Little Tikes Cozy Coupe car Pictures, Images and Photos
My Little Tikes Car. I still remember fighting over this with my little brother. It was my gift when we lived in Colorado Springs, CO, and, I absolutley LOVED it.
I think that was my first Little Tikes toy in general. I loved and wanted a lot of Little Tikes things. I can't believe how much they've even changed this old designed car, and to all the options they have for kids these days in toys. . . I'm jealous!
10. Any Random picture:
funny animals Pictures, Images and Photos
In noticing the picture, hey it's a Corgi! Cute dogs.