Monday, October 6, 2008


It's been over a month since I've blogged and, I can't believe it. I used to be so keen on updating this every week or so, with long posts about what's been going on, and believe you me, this will be quite a long post. So much has happened since I was last on here.

I don't have any doubts with Mike, although I'm a girl, so I'll have them from time to time. Being the curious person I am, he left his phone a couple times just laying around while out running an errand and didn't think I'd snoop because I haven't really cared to, but I have twice. He sent a message to an ex saying "I love you and miss you" but I can tell it's in a friendly manner. I've seen texts after that saying how much I've changed him in the best way possible and how I've made him realize how precious relationships are, and he doesn't want to be going from girl to girl anymore. He wants to settle down, and grow up. He's got his priorities straight since being with me. Amazing words from the man I love and I'm glad I found them. It cleared up all these doubts I had in my head and I'm curious about his most recent ex, but she's so much younger and he's explained to me their relationship a few times, and, I understand. I love people I was dating, but it's a different kind of love. He's staying with me for a bit longer, but eventually moving back home. I'm moving back home after my lease is up I've finally decided. I've got bills and credit cards to pay off and I don't want to have to be worrying and stressing so much over money anymore. I want to become financially stable and moving home will allow me to do that for myself. Stressing and worrying isn't good for my health.

Speaking of health, I came down with a bad kidney infection, and had a kidney stone along with it. I was in the hospital for a few days, and so those medical bills will becoming in and I'm wanting to help pay for those, although my parents will probably take care of it all. When I move home I want to be able to take on all my bills including school loans, car insurance, car payments, the title of my car, etc. I want to be able to handle everything to do with my life on my own. I am trying to become very independent from my parents, and it is something that I'm going to have to discuss with them once I move home. It's an issue that's been bothering me lately. I feel like my parents try to control a great deal of my life and not let me do it myself. I've come to realize I'm extremely different from them, growing up in a different generation, and it's hard to break to them but I need to take care of everything on my own without their help. I need to grow up and do things on my own. Moving home will allow me to save up $$ and move out sooner than I think probably butI need to get out of debt and feel secure with savings I have before signing another lease/moving out again.

That's my update for now. I'm back to work, today is my first full day back. I'm almost 100% back to normal. I've got some pain from time to time but it's not a great big deal. I'm feeling pretty normal again. . . it feels weird because I haven't been back to work in such a long time. At least the day seems to be going by pretty good so far.

I've come to realize I'm going to stay at this job longer than I thought, because of the benefits and the pay and especially how the economy is worse off than ever, I wouldn't be safe leaving and depending on a newer job now because my pay probably wouldn't be as good, and the benefits probably wouldn't come along with it either.

I hope things look up for me and I'm not stressing/worrying as much about everything going on in my life! :)